Anonymous said: Do you miss Mitchell at all? I don't mean to pry.. But you guys seemed so freagin amazing together. Will you ever get back together if he asked you?
Hey! no worries, I’m such an open book I truly don’t mind answering most everything.
I do miss things about Mitchell, I mean we dated for 4 years of course you get attached to someone that you’ve spent mostly every day with for said years. I don’t want to flatter him too much because I know he stops in here from time to time, but I think what I mostly miss is the feeling of comfort. when I was with him everything was natural, if there were periods that we were sitting in silence, it wasn’t awkward. he knew everything that there was to know about me, all my secrets. he knew what made me happy and what didn’t (though he did have a tendency to overlook things that made me happy). I was 100% comfortable with him and didn’t have to feel insecure about anything at all, and I miss that because clearly meeting new people these things take lots and lots of time.
on the other hand, he wasn’t a very good boyfriend, he didn’t put in the effort even on a basic level that I needed in order to be happy. we fought all the time about this and though he knew exactly what he needed to do in order to fix things, he didn’t. we’re both very stubborn and want our way, neither of us ever wanted to let the other win.
the real reason why we broke up though, was way too serious to overlook. if it didn’t happen then I don’t think I would have ended things even though I wasn’t completely happy. I know a lot of people know about this, but I’d rather not publicly state this occurrence on here.
Things are more complicated than him just asking me out again, because believe me he has.
Agh what is this.